I'll be honest, I complain about pregnancy a lot.
I don't particularly love this condition. Sure it has its fantastic moments but for the most part it pretty much sucks. I'm actually quite jealous of those crazies out there that love pregnancy and 'never felt better'. I actually thought (you know, the first time around) that it might be the same for me. Its not, and I feel a little betrayed.
I try to sort of stay positive and keep my complaints to Michael as much as possible because, well, its his fault. But don't be surprised when you ask me 'how I'm feeling' if I tell you the truth. No verbal filter is part of "pregnancy-brain".
That being said I am very grateful.
Grateful to have come this far.
Grateful to conceive drug-free.
Grateful to feel the baby move. (though I'm more grateful for this during the day)
Grateful for Michael's excitement.
Grateful for everyone elses excitement.
I am so excited to see Rylee as a sister. . . . .
There are so many that have it much, much worse, and I am grateful.
I'm grateful Michael goes along (and even enjoys) the 'surprise' of it all.
From day one Michael said "girl". It took me about 7+ months to even be able to verbalize what I 'thought' the gender is - it lasted about a week and I was right back to flip-floppping. I want a girl *slightly* (like 2.4 %) more just because they'd be close in age and I cried as I boxed up all of Rylee's favorite clothes (and shoes) that no longer fit her. But having one of each right off the bat would be pretty great too.
Still my favorite thing when people ask "what I'm having" is to say "a baby" or "a human". I get some great looks.
And another thing - coming up with names is a million times harder this time around. I sortof feel more pressure, and we (michael and I) don't really care for each others #1 choices. It'll come, it may be a good thing we have 2 extra days in the hospital to finalize it though!

While on the subject of gratitude remember how when I was pregnant with Rylee we took a picture every week of that pregnancy? And remember how I posted the last half-ish of the pictures on our blog sidebar (not within posts so I could view them forever)? Then remember how our computer crashed just after she was born and the last 4 months of 'new' data aka the maternity pictures were lost (as our external cyber hard drive subscription had lapsed)? Remember how I was devastated? And how since all that hard work was 'useless' I didn't even atempt to take that many pictures with this pregnancy? WELL. . . . low and behold Michael's gmail account had those pictures saved all along! He found them first on his phone a while back (of all places) then figured out how to get them via the computer. I was overjoyed. Then felt a smidge of guilt as maybe I would have taken more pictures this pregnancy had I known. Ah well, I have a tentative photo-shoot set up and some fun things in mind so not all is lost.
Anyway, after we went through the photos the other day Michael was comparing my baby bump to bump. Thought I'd share. I think I look the same. Michael doesn't . . . . what do you think? boy/girl? high/low?
Grow baby, Grow! I'll love up on you soon enough -just not before New Year's mmm-kay??